Walking into the Propel room for the first time ever to be known as a Propel student, was nerve-racking. Seeing all the new faces that will soon be my friends or people I can talk too and get to know more about. Of course, that was not the case for the first day, I stuck by myself or with people that are from my school. I am not a very outgoing person but that was what my plan was going to be for the first day in Propel.
I remember hearing from my best friend who joined Propel the semester before me. She had told me about one presentation she did about anything she wanted. She chose what she did for the summer. My first thought that ran through my mind was my cats. I was SO excited to talk and write about them. But I was afraid people would judge me, I still did up to after I presented about it. I didn’t want to be known as the crazy cat lazy. The day that changed my mind was when first I had to talk to my class about how I got into video games. I somehow got people to laugh and at the end when at sat back down in the audience. I wanted to go back up and redo it again. Knowing that it isn’t as scary as I thought it would be. Also helping me feel much more comfortable to continue to write my script about my cats.
A thought kept running through the back my mind. Wondering if I was truly ready to present my script in front of strangers. My first semester was terrible with me standing at the front of the class and talking. I could not bring myself to get up and talk about what I wrote down in a room full of 40 people. Most I knew but some that were new to the school. Like how I said about my best friend being in Propel in the first semester, I was not as comfortable. But when she is around I can bring myself out of my little bubble and do things I could not believe I can do by myself.
Propel for me has already changed me into wanting to redo my presentations, learning to make them better for the next time. Before, I would miss days because I didn’t want to show up and present. The last presentation I was supposed to do before coming to Propel, I had a nervous breakdown. I had so many notes, but I still felt as if they were wrong, or as if it is not what my teachers have asked for. After speaking out loud to my class of 27 students who I have known for a couple weeks and or a couple years. Over the past 2 weeks, I have grown to become more comfortable with showing my classmate my work. What I have created and my ideas for projects and presentations for the future.
Sara's Art Journey 